I Try.....

Well, I got my 2nd job interview tomorrow. Actually I've been thinking this few weeks that I need something more for my life. I did plan to go banking or property field for my next job.

It happened on tuesday nite, I dont know this is miracle in a good way or bad way. My insurance's agent called me and she need my signature that she forgot to ask me to sign previously. Ok, after work we met and signed. Chatted for a while, told her about my plan looking for new job. A bit shock when out of the blue she asked whether i got time or not coz' she can call her manager to talk to me. Then i dont know conscious or unconscious I said YES! (even I wasnt in a proper formal wear for interview, sandal + quarter jeans =))

Then we talk at HAN'S near Rafles from 7:30 - 10:00 pm. It was interesting, abit relax talk, abit interview here and there, laugh alot. Finally he asked me whether want to join him or not. Well, maybe because I've been planning to change my job and sick of office routine work, my gut tell me that I have to try, have to move on because this is the right time.

I know this is not easy job, most of my friends even my mom surprised when i told them. "Are you sure? after you became insurance agent, all your friends will run away from you." "Can you take it? you have to run outside to see clients. do you know it?" "Your routine life will change, girl" "There isnt any basic salary you know" Yeah yeah I know all about it. But I've already fixed my mind. I have nothing to lose, I will try. If I couldn't take it, the worst case I will just find back admin office job. Yeah, I have nothing to lose.

I 'm so bore of office work that everyday doing the same things. My life been so monotonous. But actually I never thought or imagined myself to join in insurance / sales environment too. I have always hate sales job, even though i was marketing student.

Yeah, people do change and i feel that this is the time for me to change. Thanks for all of my friends who support me; although I know they are a bit worry for me too.

Which groups you belong to?

I read somebody blog today, which keep me wandering; Perhaps, i should think like her.
" I want to be thoroughly used up when I die. The harder I work the more I live. Life is a torch that I want to burn as bright as possible before handling to future generation."

Then another friend told me a story and asked which group i belong to;
" there are 3 types of employees;
1. Chicken, as long as the chickens still productive, the cattleman will feed them as much as they can. fat + healthy chicken = good $$$. After no longer productive, it will be killed and here welcome your KFC.
2. Rat, rat always work very hard to get a cheese. After got the food, it will eat bit by bit and continue hunting for the food again.
3. Eagle, very aggressive, never wait for the prey to come instead hunt for it."

So, which animal you belong to? Hmnnn.. Ergh.... I dont know, i dont think i belong to any of them. Then my friend kept insist that i should belong to one of them because everybody does. I told him .. too bad, I'm really not belong to anyone. I'm still wandering who am I? Which field should I go in? Can I do it or may I enjoy it?

Yes, still and still too many stupid questions running on my mind. What a pathetic plan for my future. 25 years old + 18 days, and i still hanging around somewhere else. Sigh....

I always admire those people, especially women who are success in their career. I wish i can be one of them =). Just wish and dream but act less (my motto) LOL.

One Day Free

Finally I have a chance to use my MC =). Actually I just pretended to look sick when i went to doctor last nite even though i was so tired for this whole week. Tried to convince the doctor that I need MC for today and gave a bunch of reasons.

Doc: How to pronounce your name? Su.. su.. suraini?
Me: Suriany, doctor. (I will really impress if any foreigner can spell my name correctly at the 1st time)
Doc: You r not feeling well?
Me: Well, actually I need MC for tomorrow doctor.
Doc: Why?
Me: My whole body sore and headache, its been a week and I am exhausted.
Doc: Any fever?
Me: No
Doc: Sore throat?
Me: No
Doc: Running nose?
Me: Hmnnn.. no (a bit worry wont get MC, I need to lie a bit!!)
Doc:Any stomach discomfort?
Me: Yeah yah... my gastric flared up and this part of my stomach hurt too (pointing to left side of my stomach, actually my tummy hurt because of pilates last night :P, but the gastric part is true eh!)
Doc: Hmnn.. ok, let me see your tongue.
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See your eyes
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Now, I will check your temperature
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Ok, well... you have a fever 37.5
Me: Huh?! really? (I dont know my feeling at that time, should be happy or mnn....)
Doc: Yeah, you got fever, and its answer why you feel tired. i will give you MC for tomorrow
Me: Thanks alot doctor. (Yeppiiii, that what I want hahha, I dont even care I have fever, I just want a rest)

Now, I stay at home, woke up late, watched Ellen DeGeneres, slept again and end up feeling dizzy because sleep too much hahahhaa.

Does Singapore change me?!!!

Some of you guys (I think most of you) heard this story before. I used to hate Singaporeans so much but now hmnnnn (masih kali ye). I have encountered some bad experiences before I decided to stay here for long term. I always have tonnes of tonnes of excuses when my parents asked me to stay here until I was graduated and left no choices.

I shouldnt say that all Singaporeans bad, no no I should say 'unfriendly' instead of bad. I made friends with some of nice people at the gym place (even most of them arent as same age as me). My colleagues are also nice, we can get along very well.

Then, I started to find some what i call 'weird' things about singaporean.

1. First week at work, I tried to be friendly with all human being who work at the same floor as me (i guess around 100 people). I wasnt that thick skin (what my colleagues always call me) that go over ppl cubicle and talk. Its just a smile, please just a smile and my colleagues said I'm thick skin and over friendly =(. I asked them why ppl in our floor not friendly at all, then they asked why.
Me: I saw this girl in toilet, i know she just sit next to our cubicle then I smile at her. But she give that fierce look like i want to rob her. (may be something wrong with my smile hahahhaa)
Colleagues: hahahahhahahha, why u smile at people without any reason, of course they will think you are Siau lah. (They keep laughing and then told my manager, my manager say "Sue is a warm and friendly person what". I dont know its a compliment or what, but all of them keep laughing. Sigh...)

Oh my God, do I need a reason just to smile?! Then i thought may be that lady have a bad day, but I was wrong. Tired of smiling for a month then I stop and dont expect that we will make friend with others.

2. I dont know what happen will all guys, sometimes our jobs need us to carry boxes and move things. Around 6 months working here, none of them have ever offered help (actually we dont really need their help too, its just a woman's ego i guess :P). Forget about HELPING, they wont even hold the door for you. SUCKXXXX!!! Its really a different world and people if you compare between Canadian and Singaporean.

3. One gentleman, no I should call him LOSER, came to us in our 1 weeks work. He say "So, you all are new provisioning team eh, then u all will distribute out the token to asia and emea right? You know what, because of having this new team, all my IT mobile people have to end their job because they arent needed anymore" Then he left. In fact this loser is a manager, yah it happened only by today we knew he is manager. I cant imagine as a manager, he acted like that. His unprofessional behaviour should keep him as a office boy forever. Too bad, sometimes we still need his help though.

If you all think I'm too sensitive with singaporean, its a NO NO and NO. Even my colleagues (all of them singaporean), they admit that this environment is terrible but they dont care. They said as long as we finish our work and our manager treat us well, Its fine. Thanks God by giving me nice colleagues.

May be this is what they call working environment. Got it now!!!

So, Does Singapore Change Me?
NO..... I'm still my mom's sien, my friend's sur and my colleagues' sue sue sue ( i dont know why they like to call my name 3 time ,then i have to reply them yes,yes,yes lol). Keep Smiling =), it will brighten your day.

No offend to Singaporean though, its just my opinions and experiences in my workplace =P

PEACE!!!!!

Money is NOT Everything

Kind of outdated, I just read this new today. Actually it happened on 23 April, but yeah I never read newspaper. Just an hour before, we got to know from a friend next to our cubical. Everybody started reading the forward and ended up speechless for a while then we guessed who, which one, when, how...

One lady, 29 years old, died because stress of the work load, and the bottom line --- she was working in HP, as a new zealand team that have to come to work at 4.30 am everyday!!!!!!! Yeah HP, I wander whether she worked as same floor as me or may be same outsource company as I'm working for..???!!!

Some more, she just joined this company last September and transferred to this what they so call ' stress' department ONLY for 2 months. Guys, you all have to read the news and blogs (I attach the link at the end of this blog). Its so sad...

I think it is a wake up call for those who are workaholic (absolutely not me!!!). What an excuse eh!


http://digital.asiaone.com.sg/news/20070501_001.html

http://pinkmayflower.multiply.com/journal

Nothing Much!!!

Wawa: how r u sien? anything new?
Sien: ok, nothing much
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Sia: hi dear, how its going?
Sien: ok, nothing much
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Diella: Pa kabar mak?
Sien: ok lo, nothing much
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Vivi: how life there sien ci?
Sien: ok lah, nothing much

Oh gosh.... is there any other words than 'nothing much' sigh*

My life too monotone eh! Like a huge of mahogany wood standing at middle nowhere. Morning, wake up and rushing for work, sleep in the train, finally reach office with panda eye. Replying hundred of emails (a lot eh!) but its only take 1/2 day to finish it at the most. Go for lunch at 11 30, come back at 1 pm (its the earliest time), if we did some window shopping, then will reach office at 2pm.

After lunch, heaven is coming. Youtube, radio, blogging, chatting, gossiping, you name it (except sleeping hehehe). Sometimes we even have a tea break. Where is my manager? He is in Germany. so.... yeah.. u get it rite? At 6 pm sharp, everybody go home with tired face and painful ear, its because we watch too much Youtube wearing earphone~~~~

Some of you guys will wish to have this kind of job eh. Yeah, i admit it, i do enjoy it too. But now i feel useless and pretty much hopeless for it. Looking for new job though (havent even update my resume) Blahhhh!!! Always complain and plan to find new job but never act =(, yeah that's Choco. May be I'm still living with denial that I'm too scare to leave my comfort life, no no should be my 'comfort' job.

I really feel that 'nothing much' in my life. Any song title "nothing much"? Is everybody life same as me? I mean like wake up, working, going home, sleep and the same things keep repeating day by day? I miss school/uni time so much. *hikz~~

Labor Day

None of my plans have been fulfilled, like go shopping (I need it badly, so stressed last few weeks), have my manicure done, get some art stuffs to retouch my bedroom that already pending for a month.

Blahhh, its all because of my stupid aircon is leaking.. yeah is leaking and still leaking now. I have to move my bed, which from now on i have no spaces to walk. 3 big pails, newspapers and alot of cloths are standing and laying proudly below the aircon Dahh... I hope the water didnt spoil my owner's floor.

I called the aircon service guy and expecting he would come and fix it asap. Yeah i know its impossible, its LABOR DAY. Tired of begging him, finally we agreed to fix it on Saturday (he offered to come on weekdays but everybody is working though sigh...).
3 more days, sleeping with pails and 'healing' water sound, tes tes teessss.

Ended up stay at home for the whole day doing brainless things :D. Thanks khebo (he prefer us to call him kebo rather than his real name, sorry for you dude) for downloading HEROS. Its so COOL. Bo, we are still waiting for the next episodes, when you are going to DL? Dont forget Ugly Betty too. Di kasi hati minta jantung nih hehehe.

Actually thanks for the leaking aircon too, I save my money from emotional shopping =).