tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-50597044189358509382024-03-14T02:20:55.057+08:00~~** Choco Cottage **~~DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.comBlogger65125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-5368333342726705512010-05-09T21:05:00.002+08:002010-05-09T21:39:26.231+08:0028 now...What does that mean?<br /><br />It means getting older, should behave more mature, think wisely, stop whining, eat healthily and exercise more =)<br /><br />I had complain about my life so badly, but when I read and watched the news, I feel sorry and shame on myself.<br />How could I, how could I so selfish!<br />People out there lost their family, house, life and me... me... still complain my life is tough!<br />HOW COULD I!<br />*sigh....<br /><br />Sometimes I wonder, is any one out there also lost and look for direction?<br />Have they found it? How they found it?<br /><br />Some people say " dont be stress out, just wait, continue do whatever you are doing now "<br />But this is my life, how can I continue doing it when I didnt see future on it and I'm not happy doing it? I cant wait and keep waiting, I almost rotten here.<br />3 more weeks, yes, after that maybe I will feel 'thats it!' but am I really happy? So far, no sense of happiness.<br /><br />Anyway... thanks for all beautiful people who came over this weekend to celebrate my bday. I really appreciate it. Muach muach muach for all of you =)DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-89430221629997695082010-04-15T08:33:00.000+08:002010-04-15T08:43:59.154+08:0015 April 2010Me in the office pantry this morning.<br />Saw 1 boss passed by, with good intention I greeted him,<br />"Good Morning"<br /><br />He replied " Hi, morning.. +-#*@';"@*.....<br />Me.... Confused... What is he talking? I can't hear, I'm half deaf, I'm having flu...<br />Anyway, I still have to answer him...<br />Me: "Yeah" (cool rite, yeah will just answer everything.<br />He: just walk passed me....<br /><br />I continue washing my bottle water and keep thinking... What did he asked me????<br />What....<br />I think I get part of it...<br />Yah... Keep thinking...<br />Think hard...<br />Got it!!!!<br /><br />But... Shit...<br /><br />He asked me " Hi Morning, HOW ARE YOU"<br />*sigh.....<br /><br />Then I said "yeah....."<br /><br />I'm dump!!!!!DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-51902883769551172622010-04-04T22:52:00.002+08:002010-04-04T23:12:08.384+08:00I may go back for good...<br />Is it the best way? I dont know!<br /><br />In this age, yet no direction for the future, quite pathetic.<br />I know I have to let go either one.<br />Singapore where I get all the freedom (which I like) but cant find any clue for my career,<br />OR<br />Medan where I MAY get some opportunities but.....<br /><br />My heart 90% tell me I have to go back or my future will be rotten here.<br />Urgh..... look simple, just pack and fly back....<br />BUT........<br /><br />My brain gonna explore soon.....<br /><br />and<br /><br />How am I going to tell my mom.... *sigh...DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-75672730772604408832010-02-22T19:45:00.004+08:002010-02-22T20:31:32.143+08:00Another Tragedy<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I forgot when was the last time i felt so sick *sigh...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Starting Thursday last week, whole body was aching, head spinning, eyes burning. Took an MC then. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Called boss "morning Intan, I need to take MC, I'm not feeling well"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Silent for few seconds.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss "I thought you are suppose to work morning shift for today?"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me "Yes, I'm in the office now and i just went to the doctor"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss "Ok, take care, bye"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me "Bye".... (My Boss DAMN cool isnt it!)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Friday went back to work with giddiness because of the medication consumption.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Saturday feeling better, went out movie with Eve, have a Sprite without ice (I thought it might be OK! NO... hell). Saturday night, i was starting losing my voice. Sunday morning, worst, the voice really gone. But still have to go Jen's chinese new year open house. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Nice house, plenty of food. But I didnt eat those 'heaty' stuffs, I drunk plain water for whole day, i drunk 'cheng teng' her mom's made.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Sunday night, worst. My throat was very itchy, I was coughing, coughing and coughing. I felt like my lung was coming out from my mouth.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Monday morning, time to prepare to work for afternoon shift. Felt like dying, couldnt sleep whole night, heavy head, i just realize that I couldnt taste and smell thing.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I went to doctor at 12 PM, accompanied by Elaine and Eve, the Doctor gave me 2 days MC, he insisted I go back home and rest.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Happy and scare at the same time. How to talk to my boss?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Went back to office very early at 1 PM. After settled everything in my seat, I walked to her. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me "Intan, I need to take MC" (my voice was shaking, I knew i will cry, argh......)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss " You need to scan it" she looked at my face and "What happen to you?"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me - My tear was pouring down my cheek</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss "What happen Sue?"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me - Directly walked to the empty sea beside her, as I pai se, alot of people walking pass by.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me - Still cant say anything, just kept shaking my head, the tear just cant stop.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss (freak out) "Sue, what happen, are you ok? Is it personal problem?"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me "sob sob sob, no... no... I just I just...."</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss (impatiently) "What?"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me "I just tend to cry when I'm sick"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss "Oh my god, what the hell are you crying"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me - Si be pai se</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss "Ok, tell me what happen? you was sick last thursday and you were ok on friday right?"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Then I told her bla bla bla, of course skipping the saturday movie and sunday Jen's house.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Boss "ok ok, now you just go back home and rest, what the hell are you crying for, hehehehe" (awkwardly laugh).</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me, walked back to my seat and clean my nose, which almost run down from my nose.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">When I cleaned my mucus, there were blood, now this is really WHAT THE HELL!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Eve "gila su, panas banget lu berarti"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me "nga apa2 eve nih, serem gitu ada darahnya"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Eve "nga apa apa, aku juga perna begitu, panas dalam itu"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Gosh... why i cried... really look STUPID!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I think I was so sick and so scare at that time. Am I exaggerating here? *sigh.... bego bego, memalukan.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">On the way home, i think my boss still freak out, she texted me "Sue, I noticed you got 2 days MC, so I will see you on Wed, take care"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me, need to clear the crying thingy now, and reply "Thanks, I'm so sorry, I tend to cry when I'm sick, I just feel homesick. So sorry"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">She replied "Poor girl, just get your SG friends to cheer you up then"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Me - never replied the sms, and hmnnnn my boss got abit heart too.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">But still, very pai se... I hope no one saw me crying, I mean those from non our department.</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-45456348502997237782009-12-29T20:00:00.002+08:002009-12-29T20:44:26.731+08:00New Year - New House - New Housemate<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I never appreciate time so much, but I do now!</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">In a month,</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Found 2 bedroom flat, viewed with mum, confirmed at the same day, signed contract the next day.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Posted ads "looking for female housemate who willing to share EVERYTHING with me"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- No replied as the unit too exp and empty aka no furnish!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Changed plan "master room for rent, fully furnish, female working professional"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- A lot of agents called, so I added "NO AGENT!!"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- A lot of couples called also, as I replied "the owner only allowed 2 person to stay including me" B***S*** lah....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Finally, mid nite, sms came in, a stewardess showing some interest with the house</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Geezzz 4 am woke up read the sms, couldnt sleep until morning, worry and happy mix the feeling up!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- 7:30 am replied her back, as she called immediately.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- 8:00 am deal (with final confirmation after view the house), with a bad negotiation skills, I agreed she paid $900 per month including everything as she convinced me she wont be at home so often and hardly use AC due to health or habit problem.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Well, not sure is a good deal or bad, as I provided all the furniture and will pay for all bills</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">*sigh...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Put aside my housemate matter, SHOPPING time.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Get $100 TV with 5 years old, thanks to Abho who acc me to pick it up</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- $300 for fridge and washing machine, both just new born as 5 months used</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- New born 3 door wardrobe from Carrefour $100</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Bed frame from IKEA, one for me, one for her (I love mine, so i spent abit more on mine and spent less for her hihihi)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- IKEA: Dining table set, mirror, table for each room, bookshelf for me, and more small tiny things (uncontrollable shopping once you stepped inside IKEA)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Subscribed tv Cable and internet for $41 per month</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">-Everything done in less than a month.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Now, packing + throwing + giving away</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Tire but fulfilling. I was quite amased on myself.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Read it before "be thankful if you are tired by the end of the day, you have done alot!"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Now i know how it feel LOL..........</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Jan 2 is moving day, IKEA + Carrefour delivery day, chaotic.... cant imagine the house</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- Yes, exciting, very indeed! But kinda sad living my room, the maid, aunty....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">- But it will be better in the new place, I guess.</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-31619468386186592422009-11-14T17:15:00.003+08:002009-11-14T18:16:21.013+08:00The Secret Keeper<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I dont ask for it may be I shouldnt know about it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">When people told a secret, should I proud of myself by being the most trustable person in the world or should I hate that person by putting more burden into my life? </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Both, yes, I did feel both way. Sometimes I might feel "Wow, they trust me so much till this kind of secret also tell me!" But sometimes "I dont feel like knowing all that nonsense, its non of my business."</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">The good thing by being a Secret keeper:</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">1. You know the most update gossip, yeah fresh from oven, faster than CNN.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">2. Most of the times, you will amaze by the fact that you would never think of it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">3. Proud! As people trust me and they come to me for advice.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">4. Know the whole story as both parties come and tell you from each of their point of view. (Most of the times I was surprise on myself on how wise the advice that I gave to both parties *wink =)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">But the drawback:</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">1. Affected my emotion most of the times. The secrets become part of my problem after that.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">2. It hurt so much when the secret is related to ME! I wish to never know about it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">3. Being hate by the "secret teller's" best friend as the best friend thought I took away their friendship. As the "secret teller" told me everything, now I become the new best friend of the "secret teller". What the..... Primary school scandal eh!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I'm so thankful that they trusted me so much, really appreicate it. But honestly, sometimes truths hurt. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I rather not to know how much you or others get the bonus or increment. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Before I knew it, I felt proud of myself, my performance and my rewards.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">After you told me everything, I feel real stupid. The truth just run around my head and it hurts me so much.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">It hurts when other side of people think I cant be trusted and people have to be careful with me.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I never asked for it, people come and tell me by themselves, then what you want me to do? Tell me what you want me to do! </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">You just jealous because no one trusted YOU, no one come to tell you the story, PATHETIC of you!</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-82041143689950228672009-10-14T11:44:00.002+08:002009-10-14T11:54:49.168+08:00Decide Now!!!<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Change Job? </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- Love Citi as much as hate the boss.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Move Out?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- Where? With who? * sigh....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">My wish list:</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- Stay with Citi but transfer to other department, nice boss, nice colleagues. Want to join HR-Recruitment department if I have given a chance.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- Move out find nearer location with office. Morning shift is alright, but come to afternoon shift, it is freaking crazy. Chasing the last train and running from the office to the MRT station. Really a nightmare! </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Please fulfill one of my wish!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Either one will do.....</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-86458933875256766002009-10-04T19:21:00.003+08:002009-10-04T19:32:56.373+08:00Shame on Myself....<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I hold the letter...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">One sincere apology from stranger, it changed my decision...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Shame on me....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I HATE her, really dont how long I can bare with it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Do I need the job? YES</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Do I need the pay? Yes</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Can I work with the colleagues? YES</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Can I face my boss? Hell NO</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Do I want to see her owl face? Ohhh God, please send her back to her "world"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Cant even want to see her face, how to work under her.... ohh Hell!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Belle, if your read this.... "Fucking Biatchh" is too nice for her....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Shame on me.... *sigh.....</span><br /><span style="color:#993300;"></span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-32952529426092998682009-10-01T09:46:00.003+08:002009-10-04T19:34:57.012+08:00Meet my end, again!!!<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">That's it now.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I do hate myself on the decision, but I love myself most of the time.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">My tolerance level is very low. My pride is too high. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">The only way to solve it is to be PATIENT, instead, I choose to END it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I was hurt, tired and still HATE her so much. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I have no plan, i just want to leave that place, its been year and half and I never have a glad feeling towards her, instead my hate feeling toward her is growing. I'm going to kill myself first before she died.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">These two days is just like hell!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">The frustration, anger, depression and confusion are there.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Keep telling myself cool down, try to think in lateral way.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">What the hell, I dont even know what is Lateral thinking.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I know I have made a wrong decision in this time, but I just want to end it!</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-55338754936711826722009-09-23T19:05:00.003+08:002009-09-23T19:36:53.295+08:00New Worries<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">The meeting with Susan went well. I reachedto her training place early so she invited me to join the training session on "Presentation Skill". Quite fun though'</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Initially I was thinking to have drink with her, but she prefers to have slow walk to MRT station, I didnt mind. I told her how's my work, which i didnt mention the main reason is my boss. I told her that there are some changing of the department structure wich I dont think I like it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">During our walk and talk, she did some shoppings at Body Shop, funny right? I tried not to be ackward though hihihi.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Ok, continue the talk. She awared that I cant do sales and I have difficulties in talking to strangers. So RM is OUT!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">She say "How about Marketing?"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">But I dont think I really suit Marketing, so I didnt response much, in fact, I mentioned about HR.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Once the 'HR word' came from my mouth, Susan's face turned bright.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">"That's what in my mind too, that's what I wanna say to you."</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Well, from there onwards, we talked about HR thingy.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">On thing that I caught from the conversation was, she never mentioned about change company, she told me that Citi is a good company. But why all the senior directors left Citi?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Now my worries:</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- The earliest I can escape from the hell is mid of March next year.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- If I'm lucky, i will get transfer immediately by that time *doubt so!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- Dont know if my boss will give good referal?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- Whether HR side has opening? If not, then have to stay on....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- How long I have to stay with this boss if all the above never happened?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">- Arghhhh!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">No solid answer, uncertainty pretty much!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Anyway, we end the conversation at City Hall mrt and sure we will keep in touch :).</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Thanks Sue.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-33201822683318827362009-09-15T21:56:00.002+08:002009-09-15T22:21:57.663+08:00Am I really met an Angel?<span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>Past 2 days I attended Interpersonal Effectiveness Skills training course which my company assigned me to go. </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>Basically the course was about to find out whether you are Extrovert, Introvert, Sensing, Intuitive, Thinking, Feeling, Judgement or Perceptive. If you want to find out more about it, go google it :).</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>My result was ISFJ, so I am Introvert, Sensing, Felling and Judgement.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>Well, the most surprising thing that happened to my life was I became more Extrovert in the class that I have ever realized. I talked, argued and expressed myself in the class like no one business. I felt like I'm not Sue and instead Jae is in my body. (oh Jae oh...)</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>Whole class was complaining that I shouldnt belong to Introvert group because I talked to much. But the result proved that I am Introvert.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>I was amazed by myself and I love myself I really do LOVE myself in these 2 days. BUT... after the course I feel something missing now, i dont want to go back to old SUE, I feel that new SUE will have much more excitement and happier.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>(Am I weird, or has anyone experience the same thing as me?)</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>During the course, we were asked to write problem that we are facing currently, so the whole class will discuss and solve it. So, why wait? this is the biggest opportunity to write down our 'heartless' boss issue.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>Unfortunately, not even my trainer can solve it, she just said "I think your boss need love, just show your love to her Sue, I believe that Love can cure her" Oh Gosh...... what a compassionate advice.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>After the class, i really feel something missing in my life. I scare, confuse, curious, and hunger for more advices. So, I decided to email my trainer (I dont know where I get my gut.)</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>Here the email that I sent out.</em></span><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------</span></em><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>Dear Susan, </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>I just want to say thank you very much for these two days ;).</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>I was amazed on the theory that is so true about people personality which I never realized before. </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>I was also so amazed of myself, which I have never talked or expressed myself so much in the past 27 years (in front of many people). </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>I felt like I'm NOT Sue for these 2 days. Just curious, is it because of the course that encourage me to talk? or I have a different personality?</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>Anyway, I really love and proud of myself for these 2 days. Now I worry that I will come back to my 'real' self. </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>Susan, I have a question regarding my work and my personality (ISFJ).</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>I dont feel happy with my current job, and plan to look for other thing, but honestly I dont know where to go.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>I did try sales (insurance agent) previously, not only fail but I still feel trauma with that job experience. </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>But dont know why, now I feel like taking RM (Relationship Manager) job which obviously involve sales most of the time too. But on the other hand, I scare of failure again. </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>Susan, do you have any advice for it? I just dont want to waste times anymore by trying trial and error.I just wish that I will get the proper one and stick with it, abit selfish eh! I know everybody will wish for the same ;) </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>Anyway, Thank you again for such a amazing course. </em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>Regards,</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>Sue </em></span><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------</span></em><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>And 10 minutes later SHE REPLIED.....</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>Here the reply:</em></span><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></em><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff0000;"><em>Hi Sue<br />My friends and family call me Sue - so we have the same name!<br />I'm glad that this course has helped you to love yourself - I was very impressed by you! : )<br />Happy to have a drink with you some time about career moves. Let me know where your office is and I'll figure out a time. If you're in Millennia, I'm there next week, so we could meet up and chat.<br />Do let me know.<br />Warm wishes<br />Sue</em></span><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;">-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:85%;"></span></em><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>I was so touch, I dont know when was the last time I met KIND person.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>Dont called me Sue if you think that I didnt cry when received the reply LOL.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>I hope she will guide me or at least give some advices.</em></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#993300;"><em>**** speechless****</em></span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-35781719702855508922009-07-29T18:02:00.002+08:002009-07-29T18:28:56.770+08:00Friends or friends<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">Actually I kinda miss them but now I'm abit angry, piss off and confuse.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">Yeah, we were friends last time then all lost contact but with the magic of facebook, we all reunite. I miss all of them when someone posted our primary graduation picture, we all look innocent, ugly and small hahhaaha.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">Well, we plan to have a reunion, but some of us just impossible to join in a short notice.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">Since I'm going back for short holiday, I msn-ed one of my friend, here was the conversation;</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">M: Alo Lin, pa kabar?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">E: baik, lu gimana?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">M: baik...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">E: Lu kok tiap kali pulang nga perna kontek2 sih, somse deh lu, padahal tiap kali ketemu mama lu, wa titip salam lo.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">M: (What the hell) kok kalian begitu sih ngomong nya, makanya wa males mau ketemua sama kalian, blm ketemu aja suda di bilang sombong, wong ketemu kalian aja baru sekarang ini di facebook.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">E: kan kita tinggal sekampung, kalo mau cari wa kan gampang aja.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">E: hahahhaha rupanya takut sama kita toh hahaha</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">M: (is that funny? I dont think it is funny tho'!!)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">E: makanya lain kali plng cari2 kita dong.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">M: (I will NEVER contact u anymore.... then I ignored the whole conversation until she offline)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">Gosh... my fault now? I believe I'm not the only one experience this kind of friend or am I?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">Actually the purpose of me calling her in the msn to tell her that I'm going back soon, may be can meet up with other old Friends, but now... forget about it. I dont want my short holiday being ruin by all of them bombarding me "lu kok sombong banget si...."</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#663300;">The funnier moment, some friends who I didnt close with during school time can say out this sentence too "Asien sombong deh". The first thing cross in my mind "Were I close to you during school time? Did we ever talk?" Ridiculous!</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#663300;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#663300;">Friends are hard to please!</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-49694806537055248142009-07-28T19:31:00.007+08:002009-07-28T20:19:48.290+08:00Stress Dinner<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">ACE winner, the prize was supposed go to Bali this year, but due to crisis, company cut down the prize to "Expensive Dinner".</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">I knew it wont turn well *sigh...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Before the D day, I was stressed enough when I found out only me and boss would attend the dinner. But anyway still have "Boss" at least she will do all the talking with 'those' other bosses.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">On the D day itself, I almost fainted when I found out that she wont attend the dinner but nicely will escort me to the restaurant (only located behind my office building) and introduce me to 'those' bosses. What the.... If giving a choice I better sick and sleep at home. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">My colleagues and friends gave me courage and told me to take the opportunity to network with other bosses. Yeah, that was the only notion that I bought to the dinner.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">When I first saw my crowd through the outside of the restaurant glass door, I was like.... WHAT?!! Is this what they call "Expensive Dinner?" with BOSSES?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">They was sitting at the long table, total 8 people with me. 5 including me are the winners and 3 are VP people.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Well, as my expectation before the dinner was "THE DINNER IS TO CELEBRATE ACE WINNERS" and 5 of us should be the attention of the night. Am I right to say that? </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#330000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Well, tell you about the dinner conversation later. Anyway, the dinner is buffet, it was not bad, I love the cakes. I did not have the appetite for the food, so after salad I went to dessert directly. They did question me, but WHO CARESSSSS!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Well, the conversation itself is all between 'them' senior people. They talked about 10 years 15 years ago, how the working life was like heaven, who was their boss, bla bla bla....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">They mentioned on what type of people should come to buffet, who shouldnt (I think the subject is me hahaha, from salad to cake, skipping the main). Talked about drive from Johor to Singapore, pass immigration, fight with officer and all the traffic.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">HELLLLOOOOO..... What am I doing there? Why they invited me (I mean 'us') if the topic is all about traffic, 15 years of nostalgia, oh yah, did I mention before that they didnt even "CONGRATS" us? Yup, they didnt. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">And, one of the lame lady (I called her lame coz I dont understand high level people), asked me whether I want to leave first for twice without any reason. I swear I never yawn!!!</span> <span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Indeed, I tried to put on my best smile to show my interest on their lame topic urgghhh...</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">First time she asked me was around 9 pm, but I pretend didnt hear it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Second time she say again "Sue, its ok if you want to leave first"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Then I say " Oh, ok. Then I go first yah. Thank you for the dinner (try to give my best smile). Good night all, nice to meet you all, bye bye". Then I walked out and flagged cab.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Good thing, I go home early, weird thing why she ask me to leave for twice. *Sigh.... maybe she was nice to ask me go home and rest, but other hand, I think quite offensive (Actually I'm the only stranger there, the other 4 winners are from same department so they know each other).</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Anyway, its finished! I dont really care actually. I miss DEREK alot, if he was still be our regional Head, the dinner would be different. Hikx....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#330000;">Now I'm waiting for my USD150 shopping voucher, certificate and trophy. I hope the trophy is nice, I should and deserve to get something better to balance up with that bad dinner experience. *sigh... Win also stress.... how then?!</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-50811645739539792242009-07-18T15:34:00.003+08:002009-07-18T17:03:50.164+08:00What am I Good At?<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I love to make card...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Yes, bought papers, accessories, 3 type of glues, etc. Started browsing Internet for inspiration, bought new diary to note down the ideas, got new folder for my papers.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Plan: Gotta make the card and sell it online.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I love to embroidery my singlet...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Bought 1 dozen of plain singlet and sent it over from home town.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Plan: After finished, will try to sell it online.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Result: FAIL</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Not only wasting my money, now all of the raw materials are sleepng inside my rack and wardrobe.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">What a bloody plan %$^#)!@</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">So far, only 1 singlet done; few cards done, but gave out for friends' bday, my ideas only visited the new diary once (to be exact, only 1 page).... *speechless</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">What am I good at and how can I turn that into business?</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Last night after dinner with Risha and Nadia, I suggested on how to handle tough question for Risha's future job interview, Nadia say "Sue, why dont you try to apply consultation job"</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Oh dear... if that how simple life is, no more jobless people in this society already.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">** Wish you find a job soon, Nad!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">However, sometimes I love Tracy's idea "Sue, you dont have to be good at anything, just go and find rich husband lah" LOL.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">My boss has ever said "I dont mind to be his 7th wife if he is Prince Dubai" 2nd LOL.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Even my compassion-less plus hopeless boss agreed with it, then married rich husband is sure WORK! </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Current job is alright, just recently keep thinking where should I go after 2 years? I dont really want to do same thing again and I dont see any career enhancement in this department. Browsing Saturday recruitment session wasnt helping at all. Either I go back to same job scope or I start all over from the bottom.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Starting own business? Oh yeah... who dont want? When capital enough and opportunity come.. sure will grab it! But when? GOD knows.....</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">IF got money, I will buy alot alot of houses and I will rent it out for investment. IF I got 10 houses and every year get return of 5 percent each house, I will be damn rich. IF plus I got super duper smart financial planner who can double my wealth every year, I can then beat Bill Gate. IF everything 'sui sui' run as the plan then I will retire at 35.......</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">But the problem is TOO MUCH IFFFFFFFF!!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Wake up lah darling! Haiz....</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Udah ah, pembantunya lagi potong bawang... satu ruma bau bawang, blm lagi mataku perih... penyiksaan emang.</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-52811191804272609522009-04-03T18:42:00.002+08:002009-04-03T19:37:00.355+08:00Doesnt Really Matter Now<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I was being silly by deciding to go out with Tracy. I kept thinking how should I behave, can I still talk to her normally? But whatever reason, I still have to go out with her because cancelling the appointment is just doesnt make sense at all, may be this is what I call being mature, and try to differentiate between work and personal thing.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">When I met her, i tried to avoid yesterday incident. However, it last for 10 minutes only and she started "I'm sure that Evelyn will get her leave, I'm really sure. Because my training and Jae's training are not confirm yet. I'm sure Intan will approve her leave"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I dont know why suddendly she brought out this thing, maybe she felt guilty? I dont know...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Then she started tell everything that Intan told her yesterday. The reason she has promoted because she just bought a house and getting married soon, so she needs money. (Please Boss, are you stupid or have you misplaced your brain? Dont you know who is tracy? Dont you know who is tracy's parent, cant you see all LV Gucci bags owned by tracy? Does she really need your promotion to make her buy house? Are you really stupid or I'm over sensitive?). Tracy told me she was abit insulted when Intan told her she need money for her house and wedding (as you know, Tracy's pride).</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">She also tell Tracy that she has made a huge effort to talk to Lawrence (director) so he can talk to big boss to promote tracy. "So, Tracy, the point is she has made HUGE effort for you and dont you dare to leave this company!"</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Tracy kept convince me that she feel threaten by Intan and she doesnt feel happy about the promotion. She was telling me that she doesnt want their money and she hate the job, her father can still financially take care of her. And which then she decided to go for her 1st phone interview this morning with some publishing company! Honestly, I dont know how true it is, how true her feeling toward the job and promotion, how true she really can afford to lose this job, I really doubt it!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">She is really nice as a friend, she side and help me alot. But sometimes I really dont know how genuine she is. I just feel that as long as she do me good, I will treat her the same.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">This morning I woke up, I didnt feel angry anymore, even though still sad.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I keep telling myself that I will not work for people for my whole life, I will have my own business, i will have my right to do my own thing. So, I dont need this position especially under insane boss. Doesnt she realize that she is a pathetic manager? No one in the office side her, 'we just being nice ONLY infront of you. Everyone is bitching about you after that. Doesnt it pathetic?'</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">It doesnt really matter for me now. I cant trust anyone, anyway in the office!</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-35370260473000507712009-03-30T19:47:00.002+08:002009-03-30T20:03:15.140+08:00I Dont Care<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Ego's, self-center, naif, heartless, whatever you wanna call me, I dont care.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">JUST LEAVE me alone, dont come to me and pour all your 'huge' non senses problem to me, I cant help and I really cant be bother. For heaven sake, it is not my problem, just dont tell me! not only cant help you, it affect my life, my thinking, my feeling, everything man!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I'm not as good listener as old time, I'm not friendly anymore, I dont care your problem, I cant laugh at your lame joke anymore, I cant talk to you or answer your phone after working hours, i just cant bring all of your non sense thing back home with me and affect my personal life. I got life DUDE! I got my own pressure. If you're depressed, it doenst mean I'm stress free. Just dont drag your problem to my life, I had have it ENOUGH!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Sorry If I was rude, but please dont come to me, I cant help you all anymore, I cant even help myself, I'm stuck with all of my unplanned future.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Please dont come to me.......</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#660000;">*Sigh...*</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-26455093411934101572009-02-17T18:42:00.002+08:002009-02-17T19:20:20.959+08:00Basa Basi<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I feel like writing something... but no clue.... hmnn...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Well, lets see;</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Politic wise, so far it is alright. Boss on vacation leave for a week so no government. However big bosses will be coming down tomorrow and station in our office, so got to behave. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Colleagues are working and compromising well enough to each other.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Since I got many morning shifts, so around 9 pm, my body and brain will automatically stop operating for the day. Any call after 9pm will only be answered by tomorrow as early as 5 am :D</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Socially, still hang around with the same and best folks ever, especially for makan makan events. Go to gym still, but not as routine as last time, blame on the changing working hours. Finished Salsa beginner class which then end up learnt how to move my hip together with comments that I dance like a jogger or my step is too big until my partner has difficulties to follow me(blame on the salsa class at California LOL). </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Economically, OH NO!!! Need more cash, cash and cash! Hope the shares and stocks price will increase soon, I mean soon is really soon, in a month time??? I know its impossible but whos know MIRACLE, keep it positive! Also, hope Pandit doing good and really work hard for it, so at least I will get increment in September or at least those government wont kick our ass out from the building.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">House, I mean room, I get used to it, in fact really feel like home now. (Mbak nya sering cuciin baju, soalnya dia sering pinjem hp buat telp balik indo, sogokan mbak nya. hihihihi. just exactly feels like home :P)</span><br /><span style="color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#660000;"></span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-40955365514379585972009-01-02T23:10:00.003+08:002009-01-02T23:32:43.917+08:00Future Prospect<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">This afternoon after my lunch, I have these conversations with my owner's maid;</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: Kak, kakak nga usa exercise lagi deh, percuma aja.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: ???? (feeling insulted and confused) napa emang nya?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: Ia, soalnya badan kakak emang uda begitu, kan tulang kakak besar dan tinggi, jadi nga bakal bisa kurus lagi.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: (Gila aja nih mbak, bisa beneran g nga kurus kurus nih) Yah mbak ini, nga sopan deh, trus gimana dong kalo nga bisa kurus!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: Yah nga apa apa, kan bagus mbak. Mbak jadi Polwan aja.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: Apa itu Polwan?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: Polisi Wanita!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me:??????? </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: (Binggung, tungguin g jawab)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: Wahahahahhahah, yang bener aja Mbak, gimana jadi polwan, mbak ini ada2 aja deh, uda sana potong cabe (Lagi di suruh potong cabe sama auntie).</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: Serius kak, polwan itu gaji nya tinggi lo, kakak pasti cakep deh kalo uda pake seragam nya, tinggi - gagah. Aku aja pengen, cuma aku kan kecil, nga cocok pake seragam nya. Ntar anak ku uda besar, aku suruh jadi polwan aja.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: (Gila aja nih Mbak, pake tinggi-gagah segala) Mbak ini ada ada aja deh, itu mah cita2 mbak yang nga kesampaian, kasihan tuh anak lu suruh jadi polwan.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: Nga kok, itu emang cita cita anakku waktu umur 3 taon, habis nonton kartun, dia bilang mau jadi polisi aja biar bisa tangkap penjahat, hahahaha.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: (Speechless!!)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Afeter awhile</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: Mbak mau kue lapis nga, aku potongin yah?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: Nga ah, kenyang habis makan juga.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: (Maksa) Mau nga mbak, nih aku potongin deh?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: Nga mau, Kenyanggggg!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: Habis nga ada yg makan juga, cuma aku sendiri, Mam Mei (auntie) nga suka manis, jadinya yah aku yang makan deh semuanya. Aku suka manis, kan aku orang jawa suka manis manis.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: Ihhh mbak nih, kemarin bilang suka asem, hari ini manis. kayaknya asin asem manis semuanya mbak suka deh.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Maid: hahahhaha, yah ia lah, kan kalo habis makan yang asem asem bisa langsung segerrrrrrr.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Me: Ah mbak ini, emang dehhhhhh. Udah ah, bawel deh, sana potong cabe, nah nah tuh, Ama panggil tuh, cepetan sana!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Uih..... Gila, finally she left me alone. Thanks to Ama deh. Kalo nga bisa mati g, suruh jadi polwan segala. PARAH DEH!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Tapi lucu juga pembantunya, baik lagi, sering jemurin baju g haahahha.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#660000;"></span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-75236755216296038562008-12-28T20:03:00.004+08:002008-12-28T20:43:35.645+08:00Moody Saddy<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">*Sigh....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Nothing really happened today, every routine was just ordinary, nothing unexpectedly happened.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">It just the feeling that doesnt seem to compromise.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Did shopping for a while and ended up, as usual, impulse purchase again *sigh...</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I thought it would make me feel better, at least, in what so ever reason. But Nah....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">All stuffs are still beautifully sit inside the paper bag and I dont even bother to unpack it. Indeed, feel like return back all.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Was it because of 'it'?, I suppose too. Since the moment I knew 'it', my mood changed, i just couldnt control it.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I must have expect it too much, everything doesnt even start yet and I have already expected the ending, duh!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Or was it because of monthly mood swing due to hormone? It makes sense too I guess.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Or may be because of my office wear that i wore today was a little bit 'bang' and I didnt feel looks good on me? Nah... normally I dont care whether it looks good or not, as long as it is comfortable and I like it, it will be fine!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">ARGH!!! Just want to find out what the heck is going on me today. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">So irritating!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I suddenly miss my dad a lot. I was wondering, will my life be different if he still here? ~.~</span><br /><span style="color:#660000;"></span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-42732434008574325552008-12-08T17:16:00.004+08:002008-12-08T18:12:14.419+08:00Merry Christmas!!!<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I hope everyone feels as happy as I am :D, If you weren't then you HAVE TO!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">It is Christmas! Happy, Joy, Holly time!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">If you are stress because of workload, dont worry, you have to be thankful to have work to do during this global recession time.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Dont think of how much bonus that you will receive at the end of this year. If you are still working and hearing your boss say 'I want you to finish it by next month!'. That is your BONUS, at least you know that you have a secure job until next month =)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Want to celebrate Christmas but money tight? </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Dont worry, get a 180cm Christmas tree at Carrefour for just $19.90 (hard to believe eh!), but dont compare the quantity k'</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Try to decorate the tree by yourself, trust me, you will feel something special.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Dont know how to decorate? Easy, just GOOGLE it! hihihi.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I wish those who just lost their job, all the best and dont give up k'!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Just treat it as a long leave that you have to clear. Spend that time with your close one, families and friends. Just be positive that next year will be better.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">Perhaps, if you have savings, take out small part of it and invest it in blue chip companies ;) (only small part k' NOT all!!)</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I know and everyone know that the time is bad, it hit globally, but we cant do anything, we cant turn back or move forward the time, so just CHEER and walk through it. </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">I'm feeling happy even I am freaking miserably poor this month especially after paying my last month credit card bill *sigh... anyway,</span> <span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#993300;">It just money and we can get it back soon. So, dont waste your time with this once a year joyful moment, </span><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#993300;">~~~MERRY CHRISTMAS~~~</span></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#993300;">*** Better to light up the candle rather than cursing the darkness that shrouding us.</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-41855815350523917792008-11-26T21:13:00.001+08:002008-11-26T21:15:07.686+08:00Hope<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">If What they all said that next year will be better, then I hope it better be!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;"></span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-76632932989483278592008-11-10T20:26:00.003+08:002008-11-10T21:19:04.421+08:00Office Update<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">No... not office update, it is a prison update.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Half hourly send email law has changed..... </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Yes changed to 15 MINUTES once.... F%$^#)@ crazy rite?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Yah yah, everything happen, happen for a reason.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">She got her 'reason' </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">This is the reason....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">" I'm fully aware that I did not factor in breaks times. However, some of you have just decided, without consulting with me first, to do thing on your own way. It started with one person and words get around and half of you have made your own rules on how frequently I would be getting this report" </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Then she mentioned, there are 5 people that need to send her email every 15 minutes . And separated email will be sent to those who receive the punishment.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Now 2 confirm since they are working currently, left 3 unanimously.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I'm sure I'm one of them who will received the medal. Why?</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Because I was the initiator HAHAHAHA.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Since I was the 1st person who was working when this stupid thing was implemented, I told everyone that I didnt send out email during my break time. So, most of them follow me (Sorry dudes).</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">But, what the hell, its my break time, everyone entitle 1 hour to rest, be it you want to eat, pee, poo, sleep, jungkir balik kek, its all up to us. Who the hell think of need to send you email!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Haih... since I heard this news, I was really tired, I feel like throwing something to her face.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I even think of publish her photo to the STOMP or other publicity, with a header 'Cruel Office Bitch' . </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I also have to blame her on my vulgarity words!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">So, the conclusion is, since we all dont care to send her email during our break, we can still dont send but now we have to send her email every 15 minutes during working hours.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Where is the justice? To whom we can complaint? </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">HR? We tried before, but end up we suffered more from that devil.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">We can only talk to each other but there is no one from upper level will listen us.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Just hope next year ecomony recover fast enough so we can go.</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-3778596658609659712008-10-27T00:21:00.003+08:002008-10-27T00:32:00.163+08:00Nightmare<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Its been a week, kept having nightmare every night. </span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#660000;">The dreams so alive, I still can remember until today.</span><br /><span style="font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Chasing and attacking by an alligator.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">In the dream, I was a huge turtle and teased by an apes with a weird black mark in its face.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Being forced to marry someone that I dont even know (I shouldnt wake up for this one, so I can see 'his' face LOL).</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">What's tonight then? *sigh.....</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-3642391902888427742008-10-17T18:35:00.002+08:002008-10-17T19:29:07.767+08:00F*^#)%^ Office<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">A lot of things has happened in the office. I like what I'm doing now but the environment is fucking unhealthy. *sigh... I cursed alot today </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I tried to be fair to all, i dont side anyone coz I know If I side either party, at the end I will have pain in my ass. I told all of them that I wont side any of you, coz I want to survive in this environment, I have to cover my own ass first. I even told those who I care the most that just go office do your job and go home, dont care so much!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Well, being nice is not always be appreciated! I'm tired to be nice really, Should I just be a fucking bitch in the office just to force you all to respect me.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">When I knew some of them plan to leave and resign, I advices others who I closer with to not get influence by them. If they want to go, just let them go. But at the end, my manager thought I was one of them whom influenced other to have a 'mass resign'. I really couldnt take it at that time, I even told my manager 'Yeah, everyone know that I'm best friend with her, and I know she want to leave this company, but DOENST mean that I will follow, I know what I'm doing, doesnt mean that my colleague go, then i will follow!' I was really pissed off at that time.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">3 of my colleagues received a letter stating that their probation being extended for 3 months and it happened 2 of them are the closest colleagues of mine. So, the conclusion, my life wont be as smooth as normal. To make things even worst, there is a complaint queen (*bitch) in the office who always complaint everything to my bias manager. Sometimes I really dont know how she can become a manager with her lack of managerial leadership skills *sigh....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Today I received a call from my colleague said that the bitch doenst feel happy, the bitch say 'Sue said something behind my back, this morning Sue whispering to Risha and I'm not stupid, I know they are talking bad thing about me, I can listen to it!' </span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Then my colleague told me everything, actually she just want to clarify with me since we are really close and she want to know what and why I said something behind that bitch!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I was really pissed, some more I just woke up and damn tired bcoz of stupid night shift and I have few more nights to go. I was so angry coz I never said anything about her, I dont even remember when and what whispering that I did to Risha, unless I got short term memory!!! I got better thing to do rather than talk about that bitch, OK! Fucking idiot how dare she pinpoint me said something bad about her. The worst part, I'm sure she already complaint it to my brainless manager. I really feel like calling that bitch 'stop assuming and just shut your fucking mounth!'. But I dont want to drag my colleague who told me everything, inside this stupid incident.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Sorry to my colleague, I didnt mean to scream and curse on her on the phone. She said that she shouldnt tell me if she knew I would this piss. Of course I piss, how would you feel if people pinpoint you on something that you never do! Tell me about it man!!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I really tried not yo get in deep relationship with anyone in the office since all the politics are created. My colleague told me 'Sue, do you know that being the good one not always be appreciated?' I know, I dont need your appreciation, just leave me alone and dont push my limit! If I never do it, its mean i never do it, dont simply pinpoint other and I'm sure none of human being with brain and feeling like to be pinpointed!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">I decided will bring this issue to the head of HR next week. I dont even bother to talk to my manager. I really cant survive if this thing keep on coming.</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5059704418935850938.post-51655914443840892282008-10-16T16:14:00.002+08:002008-10-16T16:23:26.661+08:00Miserable Night Shift<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">My night now turn to a miserable shift. It is ok without pedi-mani, watching dvc, or browsing Internet, but without SLEPPING..... it is too much *sob....</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">New regulations from the manager, for night shifters and weekend shifters, every half-hourly has to send her email stating what we did for the past half an hour. Can you imagine, every half hourly!!!!!!!!</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">Last night was the first night the rule has been implemented and that was my shift, freaking shit right! and I still have 6 more night shifts until end of this months. We (me and my colleague) can only resting and try to remind each other to send out the emails. *sigh.... what a nightmare.</span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:85%;color:#660000;">All of them make fun of my eyes, "Su, poor your new eyes!'. Exactly, poor my eyes!!!</span>DarkCocoahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02454109324657770082noreply@blogger.com2